Happy 17th Birthday Chua Yu Yang!
haha, you wanted me to wish you in 4 places right?
k lo make your wishes come true. Haha!

CLOSETO18, 8th.
it's 18 again, lol. yet another month passed by.

anw. went for steamboat with fr's at vivo ytd. was fun! :)
haha. we separated into 2 'teams', mine was with ju vin aloy. jere, sc, vis in another team.
hahah. lol. we ate alot la like srsly. 7 of us ate 18 mango puddings -_-"
that's alot! you know, my team's soup is very clean leh, but jere's team de soup,
dont know how many freaking eggs they added inside -.- >10!?!?!? LOL!
then alvin played with some of them a game, lose must eat a fruit mixed with tomyum -.-
LOL disgusting la! hhaha.
went to arcade aft that, LOL saw gurmit singh(?) with his son.
and i kept staring at them lolol! as in, not dont like them de stare, curious de stare -.-" LOL.
and they say im a stalker )))): haha.
lol~ walked arnd, went to toys r us to play, LOL kept throwing balls at each other.
aloy and i scared ourselves. stupid -_-
sorta got scolded by the staff over there. went off and headed home.~
ytd = fun!
never been so happy in sucha long time haha.
today, went back to sch for np for housekeeping.
suprisingly it aint tiring, maybe bcos i sat down and do those things. lol.
boringgg~~~ haha went for dinner with squadmates and home-d.
going to escape with them next wed, hopefully wont cancel again LOL.
oooo, i saw my friends today~ hah~ kinda missed them all. i miss 3e4 )):
lol. ok thats all i've got to say. bye.

if you'd ever feel what im feeling, then probably you'll know.
know how it feels like to be left out. of everything.

lol. i know i very long didnt update liaoz. :( haha.
not really busy, just lazy. :D! haha. anw. ytd de ytd, which is monday,
AirPilot course, which is fun(: haha, made me/us kinda dizzy though, but first time only la.
think everyone's hooked onto that game alrrrr, we even went up earlier after finishing lunch
to go in com lab and play (i think) but it's locked, so we waited outside, haha. :(
was freezing inside the room, the rain came and it made me feel even colder -,-"
and the theory part was freaking boring. seriously. i almost fell alseeep. zZzZzz.
lalal~ went to jp for dinner.~ then homed! ;) that day sucked though. -_-.
ytd, went to collect my phone like finally. <3 <3 <3 missed it.
but great news, i lost my contacts -_- walao.. now some of my contacts are missing, sian.
but nvm :/ i'll ask when the time comes, lol. started on art ytd, but too ugly. so i tore it away -_-
and i started a new one today. drew 5, 1 shaded 4 blank HAHA. maybe tonight after 10 :X
Lol. ok long post i know. very naggy also right. v sian right?
thats why im gonna say B.Y.E.
:D

byebye! (((:

it's like you know what's gonna happen,

some photos from last day of sch and xt's bday, haha.~ i like i like. lol.
seriously super duper bored now, wonder if anyone started on art alr D:
math hwk is kinda difficult for me, completed 1 set BUT with alot of blanks. LOL!!!!
air pilot next monday, finally im able to get out of the house. super boring. LOL.
i sld stop complaining, stop blogging and get back to finishing my homeworks!
~.~ lol. i've been thinking, now who's fighting for who and what? haha.
bye.

ps. im seriously wanting for overnight with beans~! ahhhh T_T i hope can fasterrrr :P
cant wait for all the fun lol.. i want dye my hair. but need go back for np~ sianz. see how la. T_T

doing things without people knowing? hah. you think it's possible?
lol, sooner or later it wouldnt be a "secret" anymore. lol. you can say whatever you like.
it's like pointing a finger AT me, but 4 fingers pointing BACK AT YOU. :)
if im a bitch, then you're 4x bitchier. wahaha.
i don't need to learn how to stfu, because YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO. :]
lol. seems like rubbish to you? lol. you'll know. really. haha.

yesterday's, hee heee ^-^! lolol.

met them at 1pm ytd, went to gaigai at orchard road ^^ i didnt buy anything -.-
lolol, hahas. :D still, i enjoyed myself ytd. gaigai till legs tired uh! :P
lolol, dinner with them, joan went home earlier. was fun~ haha.
cos smth happened lol! but, it's memorable, right? haha. :D
shall not talk much anm... bye! :S

- i cant get through a day like this.

Happy Birthday Xuetingggggg~! :D
hahahahha, i'lll update the pics another day. bcos im tired :/
and when i recieve the photos! :)

srsly i sldnt abort the plan - 2 months of getaway.
i hope its not hard and i'll try.

Last day of school~ Lol.

Very lazy to go post all pics, you know onsugar can't post alot of pics @ one time!
Or isit idk? LOL -_______-

Ok. So the holidays have started. And I'm so uber bored T_T!
Lol, have holiday assignments which is....
1) Math homework.
2) 50 sketches for Art <- killer, zZzzZ

D: I wanna go out man. :(
Doing nth these few days, stay at home till rot. Leaf litter community :O lol!
Rubbish.
Watching Gossip Girl(s?), kinda nice show, lol.

AND you know what? My phone SPOIL. ZzZZzZz!!!!!!!! :(
Super lazy to go repair -.-" Guess I've to use my bro's phone for the time being. Ahh.
T_______T
Seriously. I'm very bored. -_-

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding, someone like you.

-When all hope's gone, you'll tend to give up.

 ♥ I LOVE 3E4'09!! ♥


try spotting me. :D actually it's obvious -_-

lols! haha. today's the last day of school.
nah, nobody broke down because we're as one! <3
starting to miss my classamtes alr, no hearing of their voices for 2 months.
and i miss you, too. and i will. i guess..
class was super slack tday. pic taking aft recess all the way.
either watched movies or talktalk! i likeee :) haha.
lunched with sp and jy, ^^ lol. :D
walked arnd, then went home. play comp awhile.

went sch for ptm.
idk why but oh pek lin talked to my dad instead of miss chan.
guess what she said?
maybe CHERYL can write a summary of facebook?
or write a compo about a good student or bad student blahblah blah -.-ZZZZZZZ
and my dad told her im lazy ZZZZZZZZ wth.
even if i try my very best, in everyone's eyes im just someone who don't deserve anything huh.
nvm zzz. went up to 3rd lvl to slack. saw e1's papers. see alr my eyes also blink blink sioh  zzzz.
good results w-t-f. ah.
lol, wnt home aft that.

i cant let your images fade away from me.
tears are building up in my eyes, but i can't let you know.

there's one sentence that made my day today, :) which was:
3e4 promoted to 4e4! woots! :D

haha. school was boring today T.T!
went to take award for i&e tgt with giselle! :D ~~
haha. boring lessons, went to library to watch this dancing show o.0
rofl. art also watch vid, but was sleeping :/
tell me what else we can do in school except sleeping!?
stupid. roar. tomorrow's the last day of sch.
and i am SO NOT ANTICIPATING IT.
grrr. someone's birthday is coming! :D haha. can't wait.
lol, hope can celebrate tgt? o.0? hah, lols.
kinda have a picnic in ms chan's class. rare or what! hahah.
went for lunch with 2jo. lol! hahaha xD jolene's sick. takecareeee:)
oh ya, we made a "fan" in class tday, writing how & wad we feel for our classmates.
and tmr's the last day. ): lol.

sometimes, it takes courage to trust somebody.
it's not easy.

I SWEAR I AM SO SIAN RIGHT NOW.

i went to school today! :D lol -__- as if that's a suprise. lol.
basically, it's slack. lol. did math practices which is totally shit boring. -.-!
watched slumdog millionaire during geog today, and we have to go back to class.
BECAUSE OF MATHS. W-T-F!!!! :@
totally sucks. watched smth smth edge? :O idk, some ice skating thinggy.
didnt watch most of it cos i was sleepinggggg o.o!
was raining, nice weather huh.
NP-CIP aft sch, went arnd collecting newspapers o_o! kinda fun, boring, tiring. /:
went for round 2 -__- lols, this time i went to collect not stay at lobby! :P
lol. fucked up sioh. got this auntie ask us wad we want, then she closed the door.
might as well save your breathe and dont open the door la. -.-
zz.
went back to sch, settle down, sir told results.
i dont know what to say or how to say, grats to those~ and cheerup to those.
never giveup, keep the faithhhhhhhhh. :)

i want to skip school so much. it's so freaking boring doing nth in class,
or doing math practices.
or what's worst, DRAWING 50 SKETHCES FOR O LVL ART NEXT YEAR WTH
that's smth i wished i never have to hear, or smth i hope that never comes. -.-"
Unfortunately... lol.
i know my post is so freaking naggy. but... i just wanna talk. care to hear me out? haha.
not really feeling happy right now.  ni sad = wo sad. ni happy = wo happy.
haiz. you'll never understand anw. :) i bet you didnt feel this way either right?

I need the product of your fears in the form of tears
It's the only way I can survive,
It breaks my heart to see you cry,
and baby it's the only way i'll stay alive.

didnt go to sch tday. :) i hope, i seriously hope, mr hakim would be gone for o lvl tomorrow man. hate art. art sucksssssssss :( recently have no appetite for meals, and i dont know why -.- zzz. anw. PTM friday. anxious. h,e told me abt our class. urgh. afraidddd. headache sioh! nvm.....

just smile, and the world will smile along with you..

It's time I see things clear and let go before it's too late. Looking back, so many things have happened, unhappiness caused, tears, memories, everything. We can never return to how we were, what we used to be. I'm not jealous. I'm just wondering, is everyone the same? Or is there some else out there better than everyone?

today:

- slept at 5am. woke up arnd 11plus. sucks.
- slacked whole noon, supposed to be studying lols.
- met xt at 6pm, dinnered. she lie to me lor! :( i still believe sia.
- walk arnd, decided to go sp's place walked thr.
- we tricked her, kinda funny, but now not. sorry sp ;x haha.
- went home arnd 10. bathed, and right now i'm studying. ._.

study for wad? tml's test la. -.- grrrrr. im afraid, lol .__."

and. im gonna continue. studying. T_T

taken during hh day/prep, i forogt, lols.

woke up so freaking early today, which is = 5.45am. -.- keep waking up at night, because of my stupid fluuu. -__- wtf.
prepared, dad sent me to sch~ went to jyss for swearing-in-ceremony with the sec1s. then had games and wtf, it's sooooo bloody borign. -.-
we bought sweets LOL, meant for the sec1s but, in the end left alot, so we gave it out. -.- zz.
went home, sleep. aiya, usual routine la. -.-

i still cant stop saying that it's the last week of sch nxt week. on second thoughts i think i dont want sch to end so fast anm. becos once hols start = do 50 sketches of art and soon it'll be freaking o lvls. argh! wth! ):

More to the point, I need to show how much I can come and go,
Other plans fell through and put a heavy load on you.

alright! i'm logging off now. and
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i know im lame. ): bye!

Credits to Carrie for the bat on my face. Pic with ssp.

got back ss today, kinda happy with my results, because i improved compared to midyear :) lol. today was basically very slack. and im looking forward to next week! because there's o lvl and tchers wld be invigilating and we wldnt have slack classes :P haha.

PRE-NPCC CIP today. grp-ed with some ppl and went to the neighbouring blocks arnd sch to give out flyers -_- lol. super fast la. CIP next wednesday. not really looking forward bcoz need carry newspapers. grr T.T tiring sioh!
next monday, is SSGT promotion test. gonna read and memorize like mad alr. i wanna pass pass pass and become ssgt T.T!!! haha.
damn swearing in ceremony this saturday. gotta wake up early. and whats worse? idk whr jyss is :( zzzzz wth. lol nvm. -.-'

next friday is PTM, and im afraid of my results lol. i dont wanna see any underlines in my report book, but i guess my sci and math wld be underline-d. sigh. -.- what a letdown.

alright, gonna watch my tv now!! :D goodnight~!

HAUNTED HOUSE TODAY- idk if it's a success anot. at first, was selling sweets outside classrm and hall :P and sold finish all hehe(: lol. thanks for buyinggggg :P then, went inside haunted house to calefare, hehe, in the end i became one of the "ghosts". wtf damn funny. i swear when u hear pple screaming it's funny, hahahah! lol. sorry sorry for laughing :x when i entered by the front door, i was screaming cos of the thing that dropped from the ceiling. but now im immune to it. :/ lols.

anw, results results. did kinda badly for my art though it's a pass. kinda disappointed /: grr. nvm. geog was fine la. deproved. :/ congrats on me getting 0 for so many questions lol. -___- zz haha. tomorrow receiving back last ppr, which is ss. hope i did welll :/ T_T so far of all the results i got back, i fail my chemistry. which pulled my comb sci down. wtf. T_T grrr. next friday si last day of sch. T_T
and i've to go to jyss for swearing in ceremony! wthhhhh. this saturday! how am i gonna get home when i live so far away?! -,-

am i not the one taking initiative to talk to you? o.0

photos for class outing. haha. received back results today, almost all. fucking shit disappointed. damnittttt. chemistry = gonecase wtf T.T nevermind. chionged lunch aft sch, then to jp in FULL UNIFORM. so damn throw face. patrol and give our phamplets. (?)

then there's this uncle who saw me walking towards him, and he immediately turned arnd and looked at watches. wtf?!?! -.-
walao. nevermind. can say is successful=x haha. went back to sch, went to jp also dunno do what sia lol. then went home~

ytd. class outing^^ at 3e4 -_- haha. kinda fun. nice food~! then HH preps :) haha. funfun. lol. went home, bathed and went out to meet squadmates for dinner~ zw's like so dumb. -.- cant believe he took wrong bus until so.. zz. lol and! went to, kopitiam o.0 lol. juliene was fuck angry cos she waited for a table, then this mother go snatch. kns . zzzzzzzzzz went home.

nightz.

tattoo your name across my heart, so it'd remain.
not even death can make us part.

 CLOSE TO 18.
today's 18!

_taken yesterday. lol at the second picture! my eyes! LOL!!!!!!!!! -.-

ok. haha. attempted twice to post in chinese but it sounded suckish, so, nah. haha.
next tuesday's coming, and im so afraid. :'( borderline failed my science, both tchers said. -_-
wth... ;( class was kinda slack, nothing much aft exams la. aft sch stayed back for haunted house preparation.
you all must support k! :))))) haha.~ stayed back till 5? then everyone went off. :D
potluck next monday, idk what to cook/bring. then go back to sch for hh preps again.
NP next tues and weds, this sucks. alritez, i'll go off alr. byee.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUEXUN, MY BROTHER AND MY COUSIN!
stay happy foreverrrrrrrrrr ;P

_update ltr.

this didn't turn out to be much of a surprise because i've been expecting this all along, just that i didn't thought of how i'd handle it when the problem really surfaced. i guess it's better to be mentally prepared than to on-the-spot think and sob over the problem. feeling so super stupid now, trapped in by regret. however i still feel heavy hearted despite knowng the outcome. i guess the best is not to know about anything, because you'll not be hurt by the truth.
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enough shit. lol. school was alright, fine, whatever, sian, today, haha. didnt get back any results at all, merely heard how we all did. didnt really do alot of stuffs during class today, since exams are over. mr chen says he's gonna revise through, but i just finished my exams!!! it's too fast, :/ haha. afraid that i'll be one of the 5 failures in art, because i think everyone's better than me ;( nevermind.. maybe i've to learn to be more understanding, but it's just so difficult for me to do so. it's alot of work for me. sigh... had the "discussion" or was it "try-out"? idk. stayed till 4+ mainly we were chatting :/ haha. went to jp with jo(s) & xt. haha. bought teenage. lol. boys like girls! :D haha. lol. anw, nth much. cyall in sch tmrw. takecare! :)

TRAPPED IN BY REGRET
fuck.

Pulau Ubin trip tomorrow is cancelled, changed to Sentosa, then cancelled. LOL -.-"
Got the Haunted House discussion tmr, hope all goes well. At night, maybe meeting
up with squadmates for dinner ^v^ hahas, ;) lol.

and finally exams are so fucking over. happy happy! :D

a few days before my exams, my com spoilt. -.-"
and obviously i sent it for repair, then today, they sms-ed me,
saying my com's ready fro collection.
LOL, it seems like heaven wants me to study! :D hahaha. cool. lol.

anw, hope all effort put in is worth while ^_^ haha. ;]
lol. i dont know what to say.
sorority row is NC16 wtf. :@ walao! nevermind -.- im gonna use internet to watch it hehe.



i feel so $%^&*() now, but i guess in everyone's eyes, im in the wrong.
so i should just shutup, huh?

Tuition this morning. Yawnz, veli early lehz. T_T haha.~ watched tv,
then went to read bio BUT I FELL ALSEEP LOL. yeah bio is boring. -.-"
maybe havent reach some chapters only, LOL KIDDING.
just finished reading chem and im proud to say nth went into my head -.- zz.
thanks for ruining my day. #&*(#$%^&* zzzzzz
and after tmr i'll be freeeeee. no more studying woots :D hehe. -.-

I wont let your lies
take a piece of my soul.

the one who makes you happy everyday...

Yay! Left 2 papers, Sci MCQ and Listening Compre, or maybe it's just one more obstacle!
Hang on! :) Hahha. Math Papers today. Manageable, but many mistakes here and there. Hope can pass.
(U) heartpain.. :( haiz.
Nvm, :/ Lunched at KFC with Joan Joan Jieyi. Hahas. ;) Kinda fun, made stupid faces. :P
LOL, went to walk around, then went up to the Centris see see. Nice bodoh! Hahaha.
:O anw, going to Ubin on marking day! Looking forward leh, hope it doesnt rain and its gonna be fun :)
Hhehehe. Alright! Byebyebyebye! :)

It's like one step forward and two steps back. afterall, everyone has something they cant get over with. i cant get over YOU.

Fuck, yeah FUCK. Look at the time now. 12:09am and I'm still not fucking done painting art. -.-
Zzz. Revised on my Geog at the lib with Joan just now and at home. Hope I'll do well for the paper ltr on.
Other papers, oh well. Not alot of confidence but hope I'll pass, hopefully with colours that will fly :) haha.
Anyway, I just realized my brother has an onsugar too LOL! -.- read his posts, sounds so hmm.
Undescribable. And, think I'm gonna logoff onsugar alr, my eyes are closing BUT.
I HAVENT FINISH MY ART. WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
:(



I guess words no longer matter.
It's who they choose to believe,